Ur name..
sadness.
i hate going home.
cos ill feel bored then ill feel damn sad
cos then all the bad memories will come back.
i love school.
cos there are people called friends
thank you all my friends.
man man man.
im confused.
bloody confused.........
if i can,
i want to stay or hang with my friends.
theyre cool and nice,
i tell you, once i like see them, all my unhappyness fades mann
i feel happy again.
now im here, typing crap.
i wont consider crap.
but now, like, i usually go to school so i can see mrs ang and mdm soh and my friends
but now mrs ang is gone.
and mr cmc(chen mali chen)
took over.
i want mrs ang.
that adds to my list of why im feeling sad.
cos it sucks mann
just in case u dont know,i actually have a lot of problems
but usually, i dont show it.
i keep it inside.
last time, i played soccer to release my stress.
now i dont know what to do.
i think only like 2 people in this world know my like hugest secret which is a problem.
i havent told a and b and c yet but i think like d knows.
i think.
cos i told her that before...last year.
and yeah.
and like i have a huge huge problem mann
stupid boy....
think i sent him the wrong msg.
damn it.
now my bill like damn high.
and i dont know what to do, cos im not an expert at all these
yeah.
i suck.
damn it
hong xiang didnt come today
i had more time to dwell on my problems.
cos usually,
hong xiang annoys me and i like it.
keeps me occupied.
like writing i love what, shao kiat and wen cai on my table.
NOT TRUE.
but at least ill be occupied trying to dissapear the words.
and i think.
uh..
i ran out of sweet stock.
sadness
mann
another thing to add.
and now my good friend from tkg is not talking to me.
and i dont know why.
but i think i do.
i was stupid to say that
and yeah.
if you ever come here, im sorry.
im feeling like the time hen i think humaira like hated me or something.
i dont know what i did.
then like uhh...
yeah.
and the time simret got mad at me cos of the dont know whatt
we ended up not talking and i was ok...
but like simret gave up and apologised first.
i dont apologise.
and if i do.
i probably dont mean it.
unless its like those few occasions.
unless maybe i do mean it.
but its just from up there, not down there.
and school is getting plain wierd
stupid ian
wierd
and i dont know mann.
i feeel confused.
att least i like can see zharif tommorow.
its good i think.
then i can ask him help me straighten some things out.
yeah
or not.
i dont know.
damn it.
im feeling annoyed now.
i keep spelling things wrongly.
and it sucks
and well.
im bored.
and i just realised my life kind of stinks.
but i guess im trying to make the best out of it
saw tkg girls playing scr today.
i said they suck, but theyre good.
jealousy mann
its like that if i dont get to play.
wen cais underwear isnt nice.
nor is jevons nipples nor is glens
and kevins ass is not sexy.
jonathans is.
like i said, it looks like burger.
damn it.
BYE.